Sampai Syurga..

Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cinta mu
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku
Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

lagu buat masa sekarang..nk kata patah hati pon x..mungkin terlalu rindu lelaki-lelaki yang selalu ada dalam hidup aku..tp sekarang diorg xde dkt..ntah lar..agak rasa down minggu nie..

kenangan..

Gambar terakhir masa bercuti di Cameron Highland 2009.

As-Salam rakan-rakan,

Ramadhan kali ini mmg disambut secara sederhana. Ini kerana aku br kehilangan ayahnda tercinta 16/08/2010 kerana Kanser Hati yg br diketahui 2 bln yg lepas. Sengaja aku tak mahu mengupdate di blog pasal ayahanda ku ini.

Beliau pergi dengan keadaan yg paling tenang skali. Nasib baik pada minggu tue kami adk beradk mmg blk pkg utk menyambut ramadhan. Kronologi spt dibawah:

Jumaat 13/08/10 - Abs keje terus blk. Skali dgn abg n adik. Smpai di rumah aku terkejut dgn keadaan abah yg amat uzur sbb br 2 minggu x jumpa. Muka abah sgt cengkung, badan sgt kurus n kekuningan. Kami smpai umah dlm kul 12.30am & abah tggu kami kt atas katil dkt ruang tamu tue.

Sabtu 14/08/10 - Abah agak teruk condition nyer. Hanya terbaring ats katil dlm bilik. Masih lg bole berjalan ke bilik air & solat. Batuk berdarah agak kerap. Mulut pon dh ada kesan darah. Makan & minum kurang sbb tak lalu. Amek semayang aku lapkn.

Ahad 15/08/10 - Makin uzur. Tengahari pak lang & pak ngah datang melawat. Abah mcm xsedar. Terus baca yassin. Lepas tue mcm ok blk. Abah byk tdo. Senang sgt tdo. Pak Lang nk bwk g hospital. Mula-mula abah xnk masa mak tnya, kemudian dia ok. Bwk g Hospital Parit Buntar dlm kul10pm. Doc masukkan air n nmpak abah mcm ada tenaga skit. Kemudian, bwk g Hospital Penang plak. Sbb Hospital Parit Buntar xdpt buat apa2. Abah naik ambulan ngan abah yong. Kami menyusul kemudian sbb nk kemas bj sume. Smpai Hospital Penang doc kt wad kecemasan ckp abah hanya ada beberapa jam & hari sahaja lg. Kami semua terkejut, abg yg otw blk s.alam pon patah balik. Sahur pon hanya di kedai sebelah hospital & aku hanya mkn setengah roti canai n air teh panas utk alas perut.

Isnin 16/08/10 - Pagi tue abah dok ckp nk balik umah [mgkin abah dh dpt rasa kut..]. Abah mcm marah sbb bwk dia dtg hospital. Abah dok gatal2 1 badan. Jenuh jugak tahan tangan abah jangan cabut jarum yg ada kt 2-2 belah tangan. Aku n adik baca yassin n ajar abah mengucap. Sementara tggu kak liza smpai dr KB, doc masukkan ubat penenang. Dlm 2 jam abah nmpak tenang. Itulah kali terakhir aku tgk abah bergerak. Aku blk umah dulu with kak jaja. Kemas2 umah skit n ambulan pon smpai. MA tue bwk masuk abah dlm umah & tlg tukarkn baju utk abah. Aku pon rehat sekejap. Tak lama pastu kak liza bgtau abah dh macam xda. Terus aku g mengadap skali ngan mak. Aku sempat lar bisik kalimah syahadah kt telinga abah. Xlama pastu abah trus xda meninggalkan kami kt dunia ni lagi. Sungguh tenang muka abah.

Agak terasa kehilangannya sbb beliau lar paling sangat rajin mengejut kami bersahur, sanggup mencari juadah berbuka di bazar ramadhan [ye..kami adk beradk agak jarang ke bazar ramadhan if ada kt rumah] n sgt rajin ke pasar utk memenuhi permintaan kami yg nk mkn mcm2.

Tak sangka ramadhan tahun lepas adalah yg terakhir utk beliau dan hari raya tahun lepas juga yg terakhir. Aku amat bersyukur dapat menjalankn tanggungjawab seorg anak ke atas abah.

Semoga abah tenang di sana. Semoga abah ditempatkn di kalangan orang-orang yg beriman.

Al-Fatihah.

p/s:cuba utk tidak menangis masa buat entry nie.

Salam Ramadhan

Gambar ehsan dari link

Salam Ramadhan rakan-rakan. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini dapat memberi sesuatu kepada diri masing-masing.

Ramadhan kali ini disambut secara sederhana sebab sudah bekerja dan tiada masa untuk ke bazar-bazar yg menyediakan juadah berbuka. Memandangkan baru hari pertama puasa, masih belum lagi ke bazar ramadhan. Mungkin selepas ini akak ke sana jua.

Di sini, di blog ini, aku akan cuba mengupdate cerita-cerita ramadhan aku pada kali ini.

Salam Ramadhan.

hari yang paling senyap...

hari ini bersamaan dengan 4 Ogos 2010 adalah hari paling senyap dalam ofis nie..sume bos xde..g workshop..executive yg tggal ada 4 org sahaja..

hoyeahhh!!!!

life as a working person..

salam to all,

i've already been as permanent staff at proton about 3 weeks..actually i already work here bout 6 months for my On-Job-Training for GEMS Programme.. Alhamdulillah, the Management team realised my work and ability to be absorb as permanent workers.. as been absorbs as permanent workers, i have to go through 6 months probation period..i just follow their regulation..

so, my work life is fun and sometimes it bored to death (Monday blues)..but i still manage to finish my work and assignment on time..Thank ALLAH to that..

now, i already work..so,there will be a salary..hehehehe..that the best thing..here is my wishlist for the next thing i will buy:

1) A watch

Hope my mum will approve it..i found this watch at Subang Parade when I went for dinner with lynn..she also approved it..i also like it..

2) New Handphone

Blackberry Bold II

Iphone 3GS..if i can get Iphone 4G its really fine..confirm xcari len punya..hehehehe..

Reason need new phone: because I loike both of them..hehehe

3) New DSLR

Reason for this: want to upgrade with new lens..with D60 is limited.

i think only that i want for now..hope i can achieve it..

p/s: have to save for raya..

new stuff..

tadaaa...

my new stuff..cool rite?

JABRA BT 3030..


i wanna be cool like this..lalalala..

more info..surf here..

respect..

been here at proton for bout 3 months, i found so many attitude and character..some are bad..some are good..but, i don't like people don't respect to their subordinate..they talk very proud and don't care bout the other feeling..example:

person 1: nah, amek table nie. ko isi setiap hari. minggu depan aku nk tgk..aku nk tgk benda nie siap secepat mungkin..*with arrogant face*

person 2: what the dghdjj*curse to the person 1*

this conversation i hear by myself..very rude and not respect..i think if i were the man he talk to, of course i will not respect to him..you want to ask for help from someone, why don't u ask very politely..don't feel you are the boss and you have the power, then you can ask anyone like that..everybody has the feeling..of course the subordinate will done the work but with feel of anger and tak ikhlas..this is only my opinion and what i feel and of course what i feel..i really respect my subordinate even they older than me..i respect them like i respect my father and brother..make joke with them, have tt session with them, treat them well..that's how i make bond to them..they also respect me as their higher person [even i'm not too tall]..this is what we need in an organisation..respect each other..so that, we can made our job smoothly and clearly..

p/s: I'm not the person 1..please bear in mind..

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

wawawa..

meeting..meeting.....

minggu nie penuh schedule ku dgn meeting..huhuhu..
nk kate bosan xlar sgt..
nk kate xbest pon xjugak..
tp bila meeting nie jd cm cuak pon ade..
yg lg best kadang2 bole cuci mate gak..
yg tue best..hahahaha..
catt gatal..

p/s:bila nk masuk elaun rakan2?

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

jumaat..

*update nie sepatutnya masuk hari jumaat..tp lupa nk buat*

hari nie, terasa sangat malas nk buat apa2..
tapi banyak sungguh keja yg perlu disiapkan..
sbb hari sabtu x dtg opis..hihihi..

hari nie jugak, lagu yg bermain2 dlm kepala suma lagu jiwang2 belaka..
antaranya:
1) akim - bengang [yg nie paling byk kali ulang]
2) faizal tahir - bencinta
3) jason castro - let just fall in love again
4) melda ahmad - kimia
5) d masiv - cinta ini membunuhku

mengapakah aku mendengar lagu jiwang2 ini?...
aku ja yg tau jawapannya..
hahahahaha..
*wink wink*

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

minggu ini..

terasa nk tulih melayu plak..peduli apa aku..ada aku kesah??..minggu nie agak bz dari hari isnin sampai jumaat..even xsampai jumaat lg dh tau mmg akan bz..semalam, big boss ada panggil meeting, ingat nk meeting pasal apa..rupa-rupanya nk tanya,confirm ka aku nih nk keja terus kt proton nih..kalo confirm dia nk wat surat and fight utk serapkan aku kepada HR..aku dgn automatik nya menjawab mestilah aku nk..sapa lar yg xmo keja kt proton nie..tambah2 department aku nih..aku senang dgn semua yang ada dlm department aku nih..ada yg skema, yg panas baran pon ada..yg kelakar lg lar ada..yg penting diorg nie semua berpengalaman yang hebat..so, mari lar kita kutip pengalaman yg mereka ada..huhuhu..

ujung mggu nie, akan berlangsung Pesta Belon Udara Panas..punya lar merancang nk g tgk,alih-alih mak pulak datang sbb nk mkn kenduri pak teh..mmg mcm melepas ja nk g tgk..huhuhu..tp akan ku usahakan supaya bole jugak g tengok..xkesah lar hari apa pon..ahad pon bole..janji aku g tgk and amek gambar..

p/s: kenapa la kamu datang pada masa aku cuba nk melupakan kamu?

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

personality test..

hi dear friends,

tonite, i made some personality test..
actually, influenced from yan's blog..
she done the same things..hihihi..
this is my result..


My Personality

Neuroticism	63
Extraversion	80
Openness to Experience	43
Agreeableness	16
Conscientiousness	22

You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You are mostly a compassionate person, however you prefer to make objective judgments when possible, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate.

Free Poll promise rings

p/s: accurate huh?!!

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

1 week..

today, monday..
tomorrow, tuesday..
day after tomorrow, wednesday..
day after tomorrow tomorrow, thursday..
day after tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow, friday..
wth im talking about..
hahahaha..

i'm just happy with my life..
go to work and back to work..
but i'm happy with that..

wth i'm talking about..
hish..

regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

I-City..

hi folks,

last night, I went to I-City at Section 7 Shah Alam..
it's marvelous..
everything like in wonderland..
some pics from there..

nice huh..


i heart this swan..


atif n cs jaja..






i want this panda babah...


it's already makes me bored mama, let's go home..it's already midnight lar..




i learn how to do this by a magazine..i don't know whether this is a good pics..anyone comment?

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

allowance..

arghhhh!!!!
why I don't get my allowance yet?
sob..sob..sob

this weekend wanna go to see alice in wonderland in 3D version..
I dont have any experience watching movie in 3D..
so, dont know where to see it..
maybe at MidValley or Cineleisure Damansara..
anyone want to join me?

p/s: miss my bro..

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

work..work..work..

hello my dear friends...

today is monday..
back to work people..
hope everything gonna be find for this week..

yesterday, went to klia..
sent abg there..
he went to brunei for 4 years project..
left atif an cs jaja here..
sob sob sob...
hope he will fine there..
do take care bro..

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

monday blues..

hi folks..

today is monday..
monday blues..hihi..
i will attend training at De Palma Inn..
Supply Chain Management Training..
hope there will be a good training..

Regards,
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

bro...

yesterday evening, my bro involve in accident..
it looks like minor but it looks hurt..
cs jaja already worried abang's wound..
he got a few scratch on his knee, hand and arm..
and not to forget at his lips..
there goes his handsome face..hihihi..
pity to atif because my bro cannot hold him..
when abang's has it porridge, he also want it..
funny..

hope he will get well soon..
bro, you said want to go to sogo wanna buy pants..
so get up and make the wound heal faster..

Regards
Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

back to work..

good morning people..
happy back to work..
i will work until this friday..
can't for another weekend holiday..

got back to shah alam last nite..
heavy traffic all the way to shah alam..
accept at guthrie highway..hihi..

what i'm gonna do for this weekend?
i just wanna have a nice rest and spend my time with abang..
he will fly to brunei this coming 28th..
i will miss him so badly..

p/s:I really miss someone that I can't have..

Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin

life partner..

2010..it's another prosperous year to us..I'm here being called to write about life partner..for now, I don't have any life partner..many of my friends already settle down in their life..some of them already married..some of them already engage..congrats to them..then, some of them already find their the other half and happy in their relationship..I also happy for them too..

Me?..I'll be 24 this September..many people at work ask me "Do you have a boyfriend?When you gonna married or engage?"..all this question sometimes it's killing me..my mum also already ask all this life question, but I don't have any answer for all that question..is it in the age of 24 I have to has a boyfriend and getting married?..for me it's not the time yet..it is because I just started working life..need to stabilize myself and life too..some of my friend that already married, they already their permanent job and has a good life..that's why they already married..comparing to me that has nothing yet..zero..

being involved in a relationship, it's need high commitment between 2 person..and it's not benefit to one side only..maybe for now I can't do 2 works in the same time..being in relationship and working..but if I have a relationship,maybe I can divide myself..

through out my life, I only been in 2 relationship..both of them are nice to me and I really appreciate them..they give me one of life experience and that make me strong to live in this world..thanks to them..

for now, I want to find a partner that can complete me..I'm not a choosey person but I have to find a guy that I comfort with him..not too handsome, not too rich..just average and ordinary person..and most important is he has to have a vehicle..if it's a car, an old car, it's good enough for me..I'm tired being the car owner and I drive myself..sometimes I just wanna be a passenger..I wanna find a guy that want to be my partner in life not boyfriend..now it's not my time to have fun with all this boyfriend stuff..and now the questions pop-up in my mind is where I'm gonna find him and when the time will come?hopefully I can get married before 28 or 29..*wink*

Catt@Kauthar Ahmad Tajudin..

GEMS TBL03 Corporate Dinner..

Dear friend,

Here some pic from our dinner..doesn't have much to say..pictures talk loud than words..

the guys..


the gurls..




the Project Manager..


Fashion Show participant..




Silat..


Asoka..


Choir team..




Dancer..


Our artist..Yusafa..


Our beloved secretariat..


Khazanah artist..Mr.Ardi..with yusafa..


All the CEO's & COO's..


Company pic with the VIP's..












BT 2-2 members..

That dinner is awesome..I borrowed the flashlight and battery grip from Nan..sometimes forgot to set it up..thats why some pics is too bright and too dark..sorry bout the quality..huhuhu..after this,the updates will be class@GEMS..hehehe..

GEMS TBL03 Carnival Day

Dear friend,

After finished our CSR Day,on the next day we have to participate in Carnival Day..the purpose of Carnival Day is to make us familiar with business world..each of company given a stall..so, we have to find a product that can make profit to our company..we are given RM150 each company and we have to return it back the same amount..if we have more than RM150 after finished the Carnival Day, so that our profit..huhu..some pic of the day..

dancer of the day..


our product..


the VIP..MB Perak representative..


VIPs visit our booth..


our emcees..yusafa and amen..


my team player..






highlight of the day..INTEAM..


lelong time..


da sengalness clanz..


our beloved secretariat..kak faizah..hehehe..

our carnival going smoothly and I'm happy with all the participation of my group..after this, the update is Corporate Dinner..